Earlier this week, I wrote about our financial struggles. I vowed that I would not take my children out of preschool. Today, I have taken my children out of preschool.
I cried all day about it yesterday, after making the decision. I’m probably for sure taking it much harder than my girls are. Do they really even have a clue?
The hubby and I have decided that we just can’t swing it at this time. It totally sucks. It makes me sad. It makes me feel like a failure. It makes me scared shitless that I’m going to have these children running around my house all day, with no break for me.
And that, my friends, brings me to reason #1 that I should not be a stay at home mom and wife:
With all the stress I’ve been under lately, I’ve been turning to my best friend: CHOCOLATE. I’ve been eating it for breakfast, lunch, and dinner (and everything in between). And, no, I don’t share. I just shove it in my mouth as fast as I can, hoping that my children don’t see me.
Happy Thursday!
Oh Rachel… come sit by me
Last year, we had our daughter in preschool. It was costing us almost $500 a month and it hurt. Bad. We ended up moving to a cheaper house and driving 40 miles a day just to make it work. But we struggled to the point that I cried, a lot.
Other than the fact that I thought she needed the interaction, we kept her in bc I was afraid of what I would do with her home all day.
So when you say you feel like a failure, I read you loud and clear.
I don’t really have any advice off the top of my head, but you know where to find me if you need to vent
Thanks, Gretchen! I cried today when I went to talk with her administrator – even though I told myself not to! I really, really, REALLY don’t want to take Goose out of school, and I’m sad that Monkey really hasn’t even started yet, but it’s what we have to do at this point… TOTALLY sucks. I’ve been a big friggin’ mess over here about it! I’m SUPER scared about what I’m going to do with these crazy kids at home all day!
Mmmmmmm Chocolate! Hang in there. Seems like the grass is always greener on the other side lol. I wish I could stay home with my kids, though I am sure I would be hiding in a closet by day 3. Keep calm and eat a snickers!
Thanks, girlie!! I do feel lucky that I’m able to stay home with the girls, but at the same time it’s a nightmare!
I hope you are able to stay home with your kids soon!
I’m not doing preschool either…by choice because I’ll miss her and also because of the$$$. They might drive you crazy now and then, but it’s priceless time you can make special in so many ways. I know how you feel, though, yesterday I ate 2 giant pieces of chocolate cake very quickly;-)
Thank you so much for the encouragement!!
Sorry things are so rough right now. I haven’t gotten to the preschool phase, but I know the SAHM stuff and the budget stuff. I’m always a text or call away if you need to vent or need a listening ear!
Thanks, Shel! I know you’re always available if I need you!!
It’s all about balance. Don’t punch me in the face for stating that last sentence. FYI I sometimes want to punch people in the face for saying that to me when I “complain” about not giving the kids enough interaction the whole.long.day. they are home with me. When the time comes I’d like to send Maggie to some sort of pre-school. Again for the interaction, but obvs it would be nice to have that “break”
Hiding in a closet is not a bad idea
Seriously a Momma’s gotta do what a Momma’s gotta do. Some days will be better than others, but as a SAHM myself only advice I can give you is to keep it in perspective. If anything and everything they do is bugging you (and it will), take a step back and just try to enjoy all the positivity that comes from being able to stay home. HUGE HUGS to you! XOXOXO
Thanks, Kristine! I could never want to punch you in the face girlie!